Perfectly Imperfect

I remember about a month ago as I was sitting and waiting for the second church service, just meditating on the goodness of God, I began looking out the window on the lower level, gazing at one of my favorite trees. I thought to myself, how beautifully flourished this tree looks. I also then noticed a rock on the ground that a butterfly had landed on. It looked so delicate with its beautiful colors.  For a moment I thought about the process it goes through to get to its beautiful form. I began to see myself as this delicate butterfly who the Lord is still pruning, refining, growing, and developing. The process of refinement never ends. I or any of us for that matter, will be in our perfect form until the day we are in our glorious body, when Jesus returns for His bride (the church body). We are “Perfectly imperfect” as I heard someway say before, and that it so true. The Lord is stretching me. My life seems to involve so many uncomfortable moments. Many times I would rather be hidden. Recently I shared with my husband, sometimes I just want to stay hidden under a rock or what I like to call my shell. That’s where I am more comfortable. Out of sight, out of mind. Those are just my feelings. Feelings that are real but not life giving. I know those feelings would keep me stagnant, like standing water that attracts pests, like those yucky and annoying blood sucking mosquitoes. Lol. That is not a life I want to live. When I tell myself I can’t, the Lord tells me I can, because He is with me. At times I will feel uncomfortable, dreadful, fearful, or anxious. Again those are just my feelings that arise occasionally and serve no life giving purpose if I give in to them. I choose to be uncomfortable for Jesus. Those moments actually keep me humble, which is a constant prayer of mine. It reminds me I am nothing without Christ and the Lord alone is glorified. Just like that butterfly sitting on the rock so vibrant and full of color, that is a picture of us all.

Although we are all going through different stages of our development in the Lord we are delicate in some ways, being transformed daily, but also vibrant in Christ. That rock that the butterfly briefly landed on is our foundation. A strong foundation. In the moments of our weaknesses, fears or anxiousness He is our strength. So spread your vibrant wings and fly knowing that He goes before you. In face of fear, do it anyways. Be uncomfortable for Jesus and rest in His comfort. 

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For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well. My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written, The days fashioned for me, When as yet there were none of them. How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How great is the sum of them! If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand; When I awake, I am still with You.

Psalms 139:13-18 NKJV

Blessings,

MG